Tuesday, November 24, 2015

My Heart Bleeds



 I thought 2015 was going to bring me a new beginning.  A chance to become more healthy with having weight loss surgery. True,  I have lost close to one hundred pounds and have improved some health wise,but on the other hand I've suffered great emotional anguish over the course of this year.  First with my dear son being loss to me by receiving a life sentence with no possibility of parole.  He was railroaded with no prove of any kind to prove him guilty.  He still holds true to his innocence.  Next I have two grandsons who both suffer depression and attempted to end their lives, horribly heartbreaking for me. Then my youngest daughter's home burned just this month and not two weeks later my daddy suffered a major heart attack, stroke and dies in Hospice,just five days ago. I am in a state of terrible grief.  This year has been one of the most difficult of all my life,with great loss for myself and my family.  I've left my own home to come stay with my mama.  I don't know where my life will go from  here. I'm taking it one day at a time for now.  I'm sorry I've been absent from this blog. It's hard to find joy in much right now. I've not given up on my God,I know he is in control.  I trust him completely.  I miss you all



12 comments:

  1. Shelley, I am so sorry to hear of your sorrow. I know you must bring a great comfort to your mom at this time. There is comfort in knowing that your son is innocent. Maybe something will change and the truth will set him free. Everything in God's time not ours. I hope your grandsons are seeking help. The house fire, thank God no one was hurt. My prayers are with you and your family. I pray God makes your life easier and times get better. Sending blessings and love.

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  2. Hello Internet Friend - I'm so sorry to hear about your and your family's suffering. Yes, hold on to God. Hold on to His Word, His Promises, and know He is there for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sending warm HUGS from one Texas gal to another.

    * James 1:2-4 * Psalms 85:8 *

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  3. Dear Shelley, My heart aches for you and your losses and difficulties. It does seem that many times lots of hard things keep happening at once. I'm thinking about and praying for you. Know that you are not alone. Many times I have clung to God's word in the Psalms through hard,difficult and scary times. God is always good even when life just isn't.
    Blessings,
    Angie

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  4. Shelley I wish I had words to bring immediate comfort to you. I know I only know you through your words on this blog, but I relate to you in so many ways and you have been such an encouragement to me without even knowing it. My heart is breaking for you right now, so much sorrow in one year...I know you must be asking why. Only our Lord knows and He will reveal it all to you, His faithful child, in His perfect time. In this season of Thanksgiving I am thanking God for you Shelley. You are a blessed even in the difficult times. I am so sad about your dad. I always loved it when you shared stories and pictures of him and your mom. I pray that you and your mom will feel the comfort of God's loving arms around you during this time.

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  5. My dearest Shelley I know that there are really no words of comfort at this time you way over full. I'm very sorrow for the lost of your father my heart is with you and your mom. Remember even though it seems beyond God says he only gives what we can handle. And remember because you serve God the devil is roaring around looking to devour you. My world is in such a state as well.. I'm not far behind you my dear. We must keep our faith because the time is nearer as our days come shorter. Your father has the opportunity of resurection strengthten your son with faith and Gods words and pray pray pray. If you ever feel you need a person to. Vent to im here. janice15@email.com with love Janice

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  6. Shelley,
    I am so sorry that you and your family are going through such hard times, and am sorry about the loss of your Dad. It is nice that you can spend time at your Mom's with all that you have both been through. I was concerned about you, as I had noticed that it had been a longer than usual time since you had last posted. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Better times are ahead for you. Take care.
    Susie D.

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  7. Shelley, I am so sorry to hear all that has happened. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Praying you have a real sense of His powerful healing touch!

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  8. So sorry for your loss and your tough year. Changes are inevitable and you have had your share. You have many people cheering you forward and you have your faith to sustain you. Despite the sorrows, wishing you the quiet abundant life you so love.

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  9. Shelly, my heart breaks for you and your family. I have wondered about you and was worried, but thought maybe you were just very busy. You are a very special lady and I'm so sorry that all this has happened.
    I, also live in Texas, so I feel like we are neighbors, in a way. You and your family are in my prayers.
    Linda

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  10. Oh Shelly, I am so very sorry to hear all of this. I have been coming to your blog almost daily, checking to see if you had written anything. I miss it so when you don't! Please know you are being lifted up to the throne of our heavenly Father by so many. I, too, live in Texas, so feel like we are almost neighbors. How I wish we were! Please know you are loved by many and I hope you will make it back here to your beautiful blog regularly. Much love, Cathy

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  11. I am so very sorry. My prayers are with you and your mama and the whole family , who is suffering all theses losses. May you feel God's embrace ,as never before. hugs my friend.

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